[Snowball Bash Mafia] [Mafia Wins]

Dear diary,

This is so stupid!!!!!! Stupid!!!! I like totally can't believe this sheet right now, like. Okay. Okay.... You can do this, Rasei. Deep breaths. Okay.

No, like, really though, this is so totally lame and just dumb and stupid and dumb, okay? Uuuuuuugh. I can't believe it! DiarY!!!! I had to share you with them, and it was sooooooo embarrassing, like this is my special place, right? totally violated. But ugh, okay, look. I needed to do this for us. I'm sorry.

I'm just so tired of people like totally not believing me anymore, you know? I just want to make friends like everyone else, but everyone's always like, oh that Rasei she's just something else. And then they'll pick me last for everything! I can do it! I can be just as good as them!! sometimes I just feel like no one's listening. it freakin sad, diary.

ugh. At least I know Mr. Alice can relate to me, like, she's totally doing her own thing a lot of the time. She's the kinda type that sometimes is in the right place, sometimes not, but like I totally get that! Sometimes you just have to hedge your bets and hope you strike double, you know? So I guess she'll just keep to herself until then, but at least when she comes out to play she sometimes gets thrown a freakin bone. I wish that'd happen to me once in a while. Like, I see her moving her snowfort around trying to get close to people, but I guess it's like me where things just totally don't work out. I can't imagine why she always moves it around, though, like hello! Look at all the snow you leave behind!! I guess she just figures there's better ways to get more or something--I mean I wouldn't put it past her, she's calculative like that. I guess she likes to throw snowballs, too--like, the soft ones I guess. They aren't packed together so hard, but she can totally hit something--girl's got a throw!

Well, whatever. I hope tomorrow's a better day. It like soooo won't be. But a girl can dream.

Rasei...
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